Yep. I'm back grinding the quarter where I was once like 2 years ago. It's not so sad really since I did learn a lot from spending too much and not really learning/adapting to the games. So I did what was was right ( well in my opinion), which was to punish myself for living beyond my means and really not respecting money IRL. I'm going to rebuild my roll from scratch.
Over the past two years I've tried so hard to shower mysefl with material things not really thinking of learning to play better and taking shots - overall I lacked ambition when games were much, much softer - which could've made the climb not as hard as today, and just kept withdrawing and saving up which was really the right thing to do, but I ended up spending a lot of money ( bought a new car, bought a nice watch, electronics, went to vegas etc)
It sounds stupid but now, since the money is not really relevant and the opponents are hella easier to play with, I'm starting to be happy with poker again - it feels like it's just a game until the stacks reach the hundreds again and the anguish and stress plus tougher opponents come my way. But this time, I'm definitely going to do it right and move up and adapt, most of all, try to play better than everyone else if possible. cheers :)

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